When the thunder rolls, it’s depth is unpredictable and cascading – echoing on into directions that are both far too wide or deep for me to comprehend. I wonder, in those moments, what keeps me stuck in this roll. For how deep or cascading, in which direction, cheering on the strikes of light, flickering through… Read More Hear the Thunder Roll
I rocked back in forth as if in a rocking chair at a very precise pace that was swift but not at all uncomfortable. I rocked and I rocked until I suddenly realized I was not rocking at all. My body was not moving. I even tried to mimic the mental feeling of the rocking… Read More Isolation Translation
Eating food did not become an option for me until 4:30 pm. It had become totally complicated. I had spent the morning puking out the back door and then calmly walking back inside to commence making lunches so baby girl wouldn’t hear or see my throwing up and freak out and tell all my friends… Read More Watch me Die.
I wrote this 420 days ago. So many things remain the same to be in such constant fear that they will actually change… The steadiness of her voice wavered as she continued on in her own verbal pursuit of happiness. She spoke of her wish list. The perfect combination of a million requirements to obtain… Read More 420 days of the same.
I have sat here for over an hour trying fruitlessly to create a very exact way to describe this feeling. But I can’t. I have no hunger. My appetite is completely gone, and although I would prefer to be coy and disregard even mentioning whether I have acted on that “urge” (which is not an… Read More Where’d everybody go?
I lied next to my sleeping child and began to pray for my health. Please release my throat. I begged, in whispers that barely floated beyond the hum of the floor heater. Please take the burning out of my stomach. I trailed my fingernails up and down her back, catching the remnants of the baby… Read More I am not a robot
My throat has almost completely constricted itself just by me actually sitting here and truly looking at the above picture on this computer screen. My god. This may not be very apparent to you. Or may it be very alarming to you. That I have gained a lot more weight than I thought. Which is… Read More Illusion conclusion.
I didn’t cry. But I wanted to. Or at least I thought about it. Maybe even just for dramatic effect. I wanted to take it back. But I couldn’t. Because you can’t eat your words. And if you could…I would probably be full. Maybe it should have concerned me that this lady…who knew me as… Read More Lie to protect the innocent
100 pounds even. He said his scale was 10 pounds off. I didn’t care to guess what direction. 100 even. God I remember when that was my dream number. when I would have killed to be just 5 pounds above that. It was within a 10 pound difference of what I already was. Apparently…from what… Read More I let in the mosquito that is biting me.
I found the tape measure and got curious. I’ve never done it before. Wouldn’t really know what the measurement would equate to. 24″ around my belly. I wondered if it was small. But then again, I knew I didn’t really need that damn tape measure to tell me what I already knew. I am small.… Read More It’s not worth it.