Now a new study from Columbia University has identified for the first time what’s going on in the brain when anorexics make a decision about what to eat. By using fMRIs, the researchers found that when they decide what food to eat, people with anorexia are engaging a part of the brain that is associated… Read More One Day
It has come as no surprise to me that I have fallen deeper into depression. True depression. Not I hate myself I think I’m fat Life sucks Can’t catch a break Woe is me But an impending dull boredom that has enveloped my every waking moment. A constant dampening of my spirit as I try… Read More I don’t know
I have sat here for over an hour trying fruitlessly to create a very exact way to describe this feeling. But I can’t. I have no hunger. My appetite is completely gone, and although I would prefer to be coy and disregard even mentioning whether I have acted on that “urge” (which is not an… Read More Where’d everybody go?
I have began to suspect that the sequential and consistent serious of inconviences at it never being a plausible, opportune, or possible time to consume a meal. Much less 2 times a day. Pretty sure 3 is possibly almost out of the question. If it continued. I’m not allowing it to, ofcourse. And the most… Read More Notice anything different?
I couldn’t quite regain any normalcy today after I vividly dreamed about my ex-boyfriend. The one whom I left. Willingly. On my own. Without ever looking back. I lost all my weight with him. The dramatic weight. After 7 years of disease…he was the first who ever willed me any results. I was only feigning… Read More Quicksand
I woke up this morning feeling fantastic. Walked to the front house and put eye drops in my grandmother’s pink eye. Made us coffee. Fed my dog. Went to wake baby girl up…and headed out for a cigarette with my mom. You look like you’re starting to get a little meat on your butt. Awesome.… Read More don’t let me fall
In one instant I am making good decisions. The very next instant, I am not. Constant Contradiction. On one hand it’s a great idea. But on the other hand it’s actually not. All of a sudden. Or after little thought. Really…. I think that very very deep down way inside of me, I am indifferent.… Read More RUN ON SIN TENSE
Most people who know me, know that I used to be an eating disorder sponser. Back in my senior year of high school, all the way up until I had my daughter after my first year of college. I sponsered 34 girls during that time. 7 of them have died. 3 in the past year.… Read More And now, a word from our sponsers…