I have said that I will miss you when you leave every day for 5 days straight. It hasn’t been easy. With tears welling up, throat clenching in the resolve that I must truly face my fear and speak my truth. The statement is always followed with the reply: I know. You’ll figure it out.… Read More For a purpose
This has got to have been the very low lowest of my life. These last 3 years…up until this very moment, have been the most grueling, dumb-fuckery of an existence that I’ve ever happened into in all 27 years. It’s all been fucked, to be honest. A meth addicted mother. Raised by my great-grandmother who… Read More Renew in me a New…anything.
A toucan, a bear, and a bee visited me in my dream last night. There had been a settling unrest throughout my sleep, which has been the second most annoying side effect of the nicotine patch, with the itching being number one. But I’m on my eleventh day of not smoking so I can deal… Read More Dream Interpreting 101
I have sat here for over an hour trying fruitlessly to create a very exact way to describe this feeling. But I can’t. I have no hunger. My appetite is completely gone, and although I would prefer to be coy and disregard even mentioning whether I have acted on that “urge” (which is not an… Read More Where’d everybody go?
My throat has almost completely constricted itself just by me actually sitting here and truly looking at the above picture on this computer screen. My god. This may not be very apparent to you. Or may it be very alarming to you. That I have gained a lot more weight than I thought. Which is… Read More Illusion conclusion.
For so long you have sat across from me and for so long you have watched me not eat. You have wondered aloud…but mostly silently. I can see the questions on your face. Riding down your brow and through your nose until the question falls on your mouth. For so long you have heard me… Read More Dear child of mine,